What we had feared...

The email we were waiting for... was finally in our inbox. I dont think either of us had so eagerly waited for an email any time before. The words we never wanted hear or see... "it didnt work". Both the surrogates had a negative pregnancy test result.
How could this have happened... how could we be failed again? The questions in our minds were never ending. There was a sudden silence between the two of us.. we didnt know what to talk. Our feelings were told without actually telling anything to each other.  Felt like the world had stopped.
We were so confident that this would work, but.. it didnt. We were lost for answers.. and invariably we thought "Why us?"
It took a lot of courage to get through the day. The best we could do was carry on with our routine... get busy with usual work stuff.
We have scheduled a phone call with Dr. S to get some answers.

The wait begins.. Anticipation and suspense!

We are back in the US. We are currently waiting after the transfer to the surrogate.
The retrieval process went well. We chose to use two surrogates to increase our chance of success. Good idea?? we'll know in a couple of weeks.
We have been discussing this all the time... Do we get our hopes high? Have no expectations and take it as it comes?
Most of the time we just looked at each other and we knew what both of us were thinking about..
Both of us were filled with anticipation...
The wait for the email from Dr. S begins.. the longest two weeks!

A longer wait

Yesterday was another normal day. Day 9 of stimulation.. took my injections in the morning and then planned to go to a movie in the evening.
I had a sudden question of how we might manage kids born to two surrogates. They will be siblings separated by possibly a few days or even a few weeks. How will the kids be treated in school? Will it impact the kids? After taking to parents we were assured that this may not be that big of an issue as we thought it could be. So, we will be going ahead with two surrogates..
In the evening, we headed to the a mall close by and watched a hindi movie 'Mere Brother Ki Dulhan". It was a fun, light movie.

This morning, we were to know of when we had to take the HCG trigger shot. Based on the scan, we were told by Dr. S that there were good number of follicles but there were also a few smaller ones that may get to the mature sige in a day or two. So, we will be waiting till friday for another scan and then decide when the HCG trigger shot should be. Our plans of going back to our city will be delayed by a few days.. this may also impact the work schedule A and I had for next week. But since this is our priority, we will wait!